Finally.
Finally my life long dreams have turned to reality. It is unbelievable, sometimes I think my life is just another dream. But no. This is not a dream, not this time. This time I was brave. This time I did what I had to do. This time I claimed what should have been mine. My brother did not deserve what he had. If he did Gertude would have been happy. But like me Gertude too has realised Hamlet's death was for the better because now I get to marry her and it is me who she is happy with. If she were happy with Hamlet she would have mourned over his death more she would not have wanted to marry another man. What is done is for the best. But why do I feel fear? is what I am feeling guilt? No. It can't be because it is clear everything is better now and besides everyone has to die right? Hamlet did his duty for Denmark and lived a king's life. He did not suffer his death so there possibly cannot be anything wrong. My feelings that I have is not guilt. It is simply because I am new king and this experience is over whelming for me. I have a queen, a thrown and a wonderfull kingdom. What else could anyone ever want? But why is it that i can't rid of these awful dreams and feelings?
Finally my life long dreams have turned to reality. It is unbelievable, sometimes I think my life is just another dream. But no. This is not a dream, not this time. This time I was brave. This time I did what I had to do. This time I claimed what should have been mine. My brother did not deserve what he had. If he did Gertude would have been happy. But like me Gertude too has realised Hamlet's death was for the better because now I get to marry her and it is me who she is happy with. If she were happy with Hamlet she would have mourned over his death more she would not have wanted to marry another man. What is done is for the best. But why do I feel fear? is what I am feeling guilt? No. It can't be because it is clear everything is better now and besides everyone has to die right? Hamlet did his duty for Denmark and lived a king's life. He did not suffer his death so there possibly cannot be anything wrong. My feelings that I have is not guilt. It is simply because I am new king and this experience is over whelming for me. I have a queen, a thrown and a wonderfull kingdom. What else could anyone ever want? But why is it that i can't rid of these awful dreams and feelings?
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